Leave of Absence

[Murron]

No idea what it's really called.
BUT ANYWAYS.
I have just been in the weirdest mood- I barely eat, I hate getting up, hell, I hate school (which is WEIRD because normally I adore school).
Well to be more specific I hate the school I'm in currently.
One of my friends was raving about it, but... it's not great.
I can't write.
I have no muse at all for ANY of my characters except this one gal, Gerty, whom I seem to adore.
And she does not fit well in Pokemon or anything, so I can't shove her in.
Not to mention my writing's become crap.
Recently looked in the mirror one morning and became depressed as hell because I thought my face was too small, squashed, and dumpy in proportion to my neck, the ONE THING I like about my body.
Recently got practically jumped (like last Friday, seriously) and the fucking vice principal just had a small chat with the kids.
God dammit my life sucks as hell.
I just...
God, I just don't know anymore.
I'm not going to kill myself, though, no worries.
Just need... a break.
My sister's being a bitch, I feel stupid because everyone had me worked out to be this smart post-leukemic kid that's easy to push around but I feel all that but smart.
I might pop in once in a while, but unless I specifically say so, I'm not there to RP, just chat maybe, or watch you all.
Um, feel free to take away my admin status 'n everything, since I'm being such a wanker.
Heehee, that's a really fun word to say.
Wanker.

But anyways, I'm just not feeling right.
Every little thing- such as not being allowed on the computer until it's like six PM, or not getting up early enough to get on, makes me try and hold back tears.
I snap at people when I don't mean to be mean, just want them to shut up once in a while.
Think I've started hated my friends.
Now, please, I don't want advice right now.
That'll just make everything worse.
Just a little break.
All I need.

[Blubbles]

This is actually... Kind of scary. D:
I can not tell you how similar our problems are right now, seriously.
I hate just about everyone around me recently, my sister is also being a bitch (more then usual at least...), I can't really write much since my muse isn't bein' too friendly, and at school I can't do gym in my condition. Only, we do this gym thing like every day for about 20 minutes, on top of the gym time we already have, so I have to sit out for that too. Only a lot of people give me dirty looks and are like, "But Emily isn't even doing it!"
I don't want to say WHY I'm sitting out either. Not to the class.
My teacher knowing is one thing, but the students? Erf...
I could go on here about similarities, but, meh.

Anyway.
I'm not taking yer admins away, it's okay.
Just make sure ya feel better, M'Kay? : (
*huggles*

[Murron]

Egads.
WE ARE THE SAME.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
Awh, I sowwy.
If I was there, I'd pro'lly try and sit with you, then have to be dragged away by the other classmates. XD

Why you sayin' eet okay?!
I'm not worried, it's a suggestion of sorts.
Since I have NO IDEA what the fuck is wrong with me.
+huggles back+
Though, ever since I had a fight with my mom, I seem to be getting better...
Not sure if I can write, though.

[Blubbles]

That's creepyyyyy. :I
No, if you were there I'd probably start to hate you. :K
Take no offence to that. It's just everyone I talk to irl is beginning to bug me. xD

I'm sayin' it's okay you can keep yer admins. :K
Weird how you feel better after a fight... But, 'least you feel a bit better.

[Murron]

Awh.
Then maybe I wouldn't.
I dun want you to hate me.

Ah, okay, now I see.
Yeah, it is weird, but we got it fixed 'n everything, so...

[Blubbles]

I dun wanna hate you eitherrr.

That's good. : )

[Murron]

Yay for not wanting to hate each other!

Yeah, it is.
I hate fighting with her.

Egads, I've missed you.

[Blubbles]

Yaaaaay!

Fighting with parents always sucks. xS
I've missed you tooooz.
I was hoping you'd come back soon so it wouldn't be another re-anactment of Gaiety. >.>

[Murron]

YAY.

It doesssss.
Especially since they ground you afterwards. XD
But is sure as hell ain't gonna be a reenactment of Gaiety- for one thing, you don't have a vendetta against me.

[Blubbles]

... My groundings last for like 5 minutes then I talk myself out of it. xD
Yeah, but by that I meant you disappearing for months. xD

[Murron]

Ah, I see.
My mom's serious about grounding.
Like, I tried reverse psychology.
"You know, I really do deserve being grounded, and you were completely within your rights to do this."
"Oh, Murron, it's okay, you're off- wait wait wait, this is reverse psychology, isn't it?"
"... Yeah, Mom, it is..."

[Blubbles]

Lol. xD
Hey, it works. ; )